Behind The Curtain 2017

As the book of 2016 comes to the afterword section, I'd like to revisit the ideas of Behind The Curtain, and get some last thoughts in before the glossary. I just read that post again for the first time since January. For some reason I remembered it being a way longer and messier post, which kept me from going back and reading it before tonight. As a consequence, I think I forgot some of the nuances of the Behind The Curtain philosophy. I still like the philosophy, so I'm going to review how it worked for me in 2016 and refresh some of the ideas in my head to keep it powering through 2017.

BTC spreads to all nooks and crannies of our lives, but for the purpose of this post I'm gonna break it down into three categories:

1.) Doing things to make the world better that nobody will know you're doing
2.) Doing things in alone time that will make your life better
3.) Taking a step back from "reality" to look at it from another perspective

In 2016 I definitely did a lot of number 2, a little bit of number 1, and kinda forgot/still trying to wrap my head around that third one. That one's a little out of reach for me right now, the way I described it in the list is just a starting point towards something else. In the night that inspired the first BTC post I had a revelation of sorts where looking at one aspect of reality in a certain way allowed me to see this other aspect another way and it was kind of like looking in a mirror at just the right angle to see the reflection of another mirror and another mirror and so on, until you're seeing this little nugget of reality down this channel of mirrors that you wouldn't have seen otherwise.  I was high out of my mind when this happened but I'm pretty sure this mirror thing reminded me of faith, like the mirrors were beliefs that aren't totally grounded in reality, but they set your intention in a certain direction, and once your intention is set in a direction, that's gonna have effects in reality. The intention is what's behind the curtain. So maybe 3 is creating some sort of quasi-religious system for your life, and if my system is BTC then by taking care or 1 and 2, I take care of 3. There's a bit more to it because I remember seeing a definite nugget at the end of the mirrors in that revelation, and I'm not totally sure what that nugget is in this metaphor. Maybe the future self, but I feel like it was a less specific nugget.  I'll revisit this idea when I'm high out of my mind.

Anywho, back to the grounded ones. Earlier this week, I was staying at my cousin's place and she went to pick up a pizza. When she went to the register to pick it up, she found out the lady in front of her had paid for her pizza. A documentary I was watching was mentioning how doing acts of kindness like this seems to make people happier, on both sides. I've been pretty broke the past few years, and now that I'm starting to be slightly not broke, maybe I could start doing shit like this. Leaving money in parking meters or paying for people behind me in line seems like more immediate ways to improve reality for people like me, which is in the spirit of BTC, but if I'm just giving away money it's probably better to go through that effective altruism stuff. Also I still owe Adrian money. So maybe for number 1 I should give more time than money this year.  Also more blood. I also think a lot of number 1 has to do with squashing beefs, forgiving people, not holding onto grudges, and that kinda stuff.

Number two is mainly about health. This is the one that I actually did for reals in 2016. Taking care of the mind-body-spirit. I did a lot more reading/exercising/meditation than in the past couple years and I definitely felt better because of it, and that better feeling helped me in other areas, like making new friends and dating a bit for the first time in millennia. It's still hard as fuck to meditate enough though so it's good to refresh that idea. That shit chills out your vibes on so many levels.

Anyways, I might try to fit in a little tate-sesh before I get too sleepy. Goodnight blog.

Arrival On The Blog

I just got home from Arrival and I had an edible and my mom and boyfriend are talking about an email so I'm gonna write a blog post.  I haven't word fucked this holy blogina in a long time, at least not with anything worth reading.  I'm not sure I have anything to say now either.  I'm sure I felt the same way about the movie as you guys did. And who the fuck wants to read about what some asshole thinks of a movie? Not me, so that's why I'm not writing that. But I feel like that's what I've been thinking about everything I used to write about in the past several months, and hence the lack of wordlove. I'll try to come up with a subject over the next few days. In the meantime if anyone has anything interesting to post I'd appreciate it, I'm so goddamn bored with the internet right now. I love you guys and I say we gangbang this blog all kindsa pregnant with blog posts, even if we know the blog is gonna die.

Peace among worlds.